领悟？

今天，宝贝来陪我做工～

今天我很静～除了跟宝贝说话之外～

我再也没有跟别的朋友说话～

因为我好害怕自己又说错话了～

加深了我更想要得到自闭症的想法～

因为这样我就不会伤害到任何人～

我很讨厌这样得自己～

去到那里，就被讨厌到哪里～

在学校也是这样～

天，这些事还要重覆多少次？

为什么我就是这样讨厌嘛？？

我明知道自己就是会很容易说错话～

其实我在想，以后我少点说话，会不会更加好？

这样我就不用害怕了～

静静的我，总好过吵闹的我吧？

难道？？我真的是适合斯文派？？

我以为自己是开心果～

但原来我不是～

我只是一个只会让别人讨厌～

说话伤害人的笨蛋～

宝贝说得对～

我过头了～

是时候成熟点～

我很喜欢有姐妹的感觉～

有人可以跟我分享男友，生活中的大大小小～

好羡慕～

可是，我只能永远当一个配角～

生活里，我永远只是一个身边的小小不显眼的小小配角～

算了吧～

我知道了～～以后说话小心点～

记得不要玩过头～^^

我明白了～

如果我是这样讨厌～

那宝贝，我真的应该谢谢你～

忍受我那么久～

宝贝，我好想要你陪伴我～

我不要寂寞，孤单的感觉～

我不喜欢我真的很害怕～

但是，却不是我想象的美好～

为什么？又是这样？我知道，因为我的性格～

因为我自己拿来的？！我很讨厌我自己？！

我不应该存在这个世界？！！！！

我很讨厌很讨厌现在这样的我？！！

我不要了～好不好？？

休息一天～

今天好轻松哦～在家里休息，没有任何事烦～
我今天没有什么想要说的～
因为没什么特别的事情～

谢谢～

什么心情？

今天，也不是很开心的一天～

宝贝今天看了我的博客～但是他没有很专心去看～

好失望～TT

今天知道原来你真的很爱你的女友～

我很开心～可能，你真的只是在我寂寞的时候陪伴我的人～

哈哈～原来，那时候就是这样嘛？

好矛盾？什么啦？

今天真的完全没有化妆～

好多人给我吓到了～^^没办法吗～

因为要点货啊～可是，还是顺利点玩～

在工作的地方～我真的学到很多～

我终于明白自己原来不是开心果～

我觉得我真的很普通～

那又怎样？今天我还幻想～

我真的希望自己得到自闭症～

就躲在自己的世界～不要跑出来～

不要让别人知道我在想什么～也不需要面对人与事～

好怀念以前读书的日子～

我好累哦～

其实你知道嘛？

我是一个很害怕孤单的人～

我是一个好想要有好姐妹，好朋友的人～

我是一个很笨的人～

还有好多好多～

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

A letter for my dear~

Baby, you see Well? ~ I wrote this because English is not good, so use the google translate because I know you will not read Chinese, I have many, many words to tell you oh ~

Baby, sometimes I get angry because I wanted to like kids, be able to rely on your side, can be your love and sayang ~ you know?

Sometimes we fight, can you walk away do not leave me alone?You know what? Walking alone in the street, watching other couplesintimate, heart really very sad, you know?

Every day I carefully dressed, you know what thing I most want to hear? Is to hear you say, my baby is always the best, so one day my heart is happy, because I really want to know in your heart is how many points? you know?

Sometimes, I will say bad things about your ex-girlfriend, is too ill,because their threat is very great, I'm so afraid that one day you willreturn to their side, abandon me. I do not want to try the previouspain. You know?

I was stupid, I'm very stupid, sometimes in specially installed before you stupid, because I want you more concerned about me, a lot ofcare about me, because I really want to be a girl by her boyfriendloved ~ you know ?

I usually tell you, I would not be jealous, in fact, that was a lie, in fact I am jealous of the girls will, even if you move a bit the other girls, I will be very angry, but I do not want to show it because of fear of You willnot like ~ you know?

I said, I want you to put me in your mind first is selfish because I want to occupy your mind, do not want others to get your heart, and Ihanded I admit, because I love you, You know what?

I do not see any other boys, I see you dressed up also, because I want you to know, and let you know, you treasure me, you're holdingme, do not let me give you other boys away ~ Know?

When in a fight every time, I cried, because I want you to sayang me,I am a very easy to coax the girl, as long as you kiss me, I will immediately hold you, say baby I'm sorry

Baby, our love is when the deadline? I'm so afraid of losing you, Ikeep telling myself, do not be afraid to lose you, I actually lie to theirown, because I do not want to let myself even more painful, you do not know how much I love you, how I want to You lot know me, four years, why? You still can not think of me as a child the same? I do not want to fight you every time we leave I'm gone, because it ispainful, every time you call, I'm scared, you will not answer my phone, so I fear you ignore me, I said I Very insecure Is true because I really love you, but I do not know in your mind how much I occupied a seat in the end? Why do I feel that not enough?

terry, please remember that I do not like to fight every day, I want youwhen I was just like a child sayang me, there are many, many, but Ican not express, the expression is not enough ~
In fact, you will not see the letter I wrote to you? Would you?

My heart is knowing that you will not

白痴？不是。。是傻～

明明就是对你没有感觉了～为什么再次联络～

所有感觉～回来了？

我告诉我自己～不可以。。因为大家都有伴侣～

想当初，你是第一个让我变心的男人～

可是又怎样？感觉自己好cheap哦~

想说什么啦？

我不是应该讨厌你嘛？为什么好像不是了？

我应该讨厌你什么？讨厌你拒绝我？

搞笑咯？？！！

只是因为我不舍得那时候的感觉～

还有。。当初你没有说清楚～

让我真的很伤心～心痛～

可能你是特地伤害我的吧？

还是你觉得我真的很cheap??

在乎什么啦？人家都有女友～你自己也有男友啦～

算了吧～宝琳～人家是人家了～不是以前了～

宝贝～我好想你现在在这里紧紧抱我～

让我有安全感～让我知道，你才是最爱我的～

PiZZA～～

原来好吃的东西不是一个人才好吃的～
而是一帮朋友～抢来抢去～
这才是真正的好吃～

相处融洽～我一直以来所求的～
以前在学校就是给人排斥，隔离～
现在在这里～
还好我遇到了几个好朋友～～

hmmmm~好开心～



好啦～我知道我的嘴巴没有大个啦～

其实哦～今天我们只是订一个pizza罢了咯～
只是哦～yomiki tan的朋友送多一个来～
哇咔咔～算啦～

我们有口福咯～～
^^

还有哦～我的干女儿进医院了～
不知道现在怎样了？
最衰咯～电话没有钱～
希望她平平安安啊～宝贝～^^